* At night he dropped by his grandpa's house. There he saw his cousin who he hasn't seen him since he volunteered in the army.
"Hi, it has been long time since we met"
Yea, there I always remembered our days together" he added "Sam, why I didn't hear any thing from…. you could write me a letter"
"I don't have the address," he said that while his eyes were on the gun hanging on his cousin's waist. He thought," if I could snatch this gun … I won't take it forever… I need only one shot and then i will end this trauma which called life.
No physicians nagging all the time upon your head, no medication, no bankruptcies, no girl told you that she can't live with half man, no...No...Maybe death is the only way to say no
But dear gun how can I get you and he keep his hand on you as he has intuition that somebody will take you from him….
or maybe because in the army they teach you to protect your gun as you protect you honor"
"Hey, Sam what's up? The mouse ate your tongue I am talking to you man."
"Nothing at all, would you please teach me how to use the gun and i will owe you forever"
"Yea, but why"
"Iwanna volunteer in the army
But SAM YOU……OK.OK never mind i will do it for you…. let us go there."
"It won't take a long time I promise"
"Here we are first hold the gun like this .then put your finger upon the trigger then... now your turn"
He took the gun, pointed it toward his head.
"Sam!!! What the hell you think yourself doing? "
I can't owe you for long time you know me""
And then he shot.
He came near the body, kneeled and whispered in the dead ear," you stupid idiot you were selfish even in your death….why…why you could die in another way why me … why you are insisted to ruin my life even in your death .who would believe now that didn't kill you. I will be a criminal they will sue me, kick me out the army and i will spend my life in jail are you happy now??"
You were a jerk and you died like one, you always told me that you like the way Hemingway end his life it was the assertion of his dignity as you said. Are you content you died like him?
But listen you are not better than me you chose your way of death so do I .I am soldier and i should die like one by bullet even if it was my own I won't let the jail bars devour my days "
He grabbed the gun and ….
FOOLISH DECISION 
Thanks White Jasmine